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Hope you are having a great week! I can’t believe I am turning thirty three this Friday. Looking back at my Quarantine birthday last year I’ve realized so much has changed. Personally I’ve learned a lot about myself and I feel like this past year has helped me grow in so many ways. Today I thought I would share something that I’ve been wanting to share for a very long time, and I thought with my birthday coming up it would be a perfect time to do so. Today I am talking about drowning out the noise and how it has helped me live the best version of myself. Read more below!
DROWNING OUT THE NOISE:
First of all let me preface and say I am not everyone’s cup of tea. This isn’t something new and something I’ve learned early in when I was in grade school. I get it not everyone will agree with what I do, what I say, or even how I look, and you know what that is perfectly ok. Because what other people’s opinion of me is none of my business. I truly believe the only person I need to answer to is God, and at the end of my life he will be the one to judge me.
But this past year with the political and social tension with COVID, the election, racial tension, etc, it’s been very difficult to be true to who you are without offending someone else’s ideals or beliefs, especially with social media and how the news was portraying everything. You are damned if you do, damned if you don’t in almost any situation . At one point I lived in fear of what people might think of me or how it would affect my business. But then I started to see how it was affecting me and my mental health. I was so busy thinking about what other people would think of me that I wasn’t living my authentic self.
It was then that I prayed and started to focus more on what would Jesus do. Even then Jesus lived his holy life he offended people. He offended people so much that he was crucified for it. But even when he was threatened, shunned, laughed out or ridiculed he continued to live and share God’s message. I know God would not want me to live in fear. He gave me a mind, a body, and a heart to live my life to the fullest to what he had destined me to be. Not to hide in the shadows for fear of retaliation, sickness, or even death.
So after much thought and consideration I decided to take steps to drown out the noise in my life that was distracting me from living my true authentic self. I stopped watching the news that was feeding fear in people’s heart and minds/ I stopped getting on social media unless it was for work purposes. And I started to distance myself from people who did not pour life into me or spoke ill will about God. When trolls would message me on social media I either responded with “I am praying for you, bless your heart”, or did not respond all together. I did not let their negative comments affect my decision in my life on how I was going to live my life.
No I am not perfect, nor do I always make the best decisions, but at least I am living my life as God would have intended me to. Since then I have had less stress, less anxiety, and have lived some of the best moments in my life. My work has grown, and I have established some amazing relationships with brands that truly appreciate my work and what I stand for. My friends and family who have stuck around are my ride or die. They appreciate me for my authentic self, the good and bad, and I truly appreciate them for that. For those who I have distance myself including my online trolls I constantly say a prayer for, as though it might not be me that will be the one to guide them to see the light, I hope God does show them favor so that they may see life without fear, hate, or jealousy.
So friends, if you are living in a state of fear, stress, and anxiety. I encourage you to drown out the noise that is causing that in your life and look towards God for guidance and protection. God has got you. Live your life as God intends you to.
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This thirty third birthday is a special one for me. So many big changes coming our way. We recently had the opportunity to make one of my biggest childhood dreams come true. I feel like God has a way of showing us to trust his timing. I can’t wait to share more once everything is set in stone. Josh and I recently started Foster parent training. We feel with everything going on this is the right timing for us. We’ve taken a break in fertility treatments to have another one of our own as I’ve realized my body just needs time to naturally adjust to being off an IUD. We are excited for this next big step in our life and can’t wait to share more so stay tuned! Here’s to turning thirty three the best year yet!
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